Playing The Jester      

descend far from me
i am stronger alone
you complicate my thoughts
my emotions are strangled
a despised feeling i never wanted to return
and i owe all my regrets to myself
i foresaw the destruction to the path leading your way
motivated by selfishness, i couldn't say no
even though i saw right through the picture-perfect surface
i stubbornly proceeded
now i stand deep in my ditch of disobedience
the moments have passed
i know my foolishness cannot be reverted
i found intrigue in the illusion i created
well-aware my suspicions would be confirmed as truth
now i find it hard to forgive myself
I sought comfort in a lie i wanted to believe for a fragment of time
this whole time i knew you weren't serious
i knew i was just another number, another face with no identity
it doesn't matter to you, it's all just a game
all odds are at my expense

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